everybody keeps talking about marriage. you know what? it sounds like a thunder in the middle of the drought. why I tell so? because.. I’m.. not.. ready.. for.. maaaarrriaaage. NOT READY!
I keep telling myself that I’m still 17 y.o. haha! taking one step to a more serious one a.k.a. marriage doesn’t sound like a good news for me now. I’m not ready! to me, marriage is a sacred thing, one and only. I just can’t imagine how I can take care of husband and children. not to mention that I don’t want to have a marriage, but, seriously, I don’t want to have it in young age. not at least until I’m 25 y.o. People here call it “unstable”, and yes, to be honest I’m still unstable to think about marriage. i want it to be perfect. perfect husband-to-be (I have one now *happy face*), perfect financial thingy, and perfect mentality. I only have the first one (amin), but the last two don’t; not yet. I want my future children to be settled, I don’t want to sacrifice their needs if my financial doesn’t support them. At least, if I have enough money to build a family, I’ll start thinking about making one of my own. and I will have idealism just like my mom; at least: a small house by my own and a car, whether it’s a brand new one or second-handed, as long as it can keep my children staying out of the bad weather.
and what about mentality? well yeah, I’m sure, becoming older and older will make me a wise adult. that will bring a good mentality too, won’t it? but then, God have the way to lead me into a marriage. again, maaarrriaaaaage.